today has been a really sad day for me. i lost my cat of nearly 15 years. People might think if they havent been through this experience before oh you have lost many pets before you must be getting use to it by now they couldnt be any wronger. like when you lose a member of your family or friend it doesnt matter how many times it happens nothing makes the next loss any easier.
Cleo was a sweet little girl. she was a tortie the kind that is white, brown and black and in her earlier life she didnt live with us as she lived in another home where they didnt treat her particularly well. someone even trimmed her ears with scissors can you believe and she wasnt given a lot to eat or very regularly and not shown much love either so when she got to us she was kind of shy and took a little time to get use to hubby and me. when she did settle in she gave lots of love and i got really fond of her.
A couple of weeks back now she collapsed in a heap on the floor one morning and as she was near one of our younger cats who was only to likely to swipe anyone that got in her way i thought she might have been hit and fell down. on taking her aside i noticed she was looking very unwell so i rang the vet and took her down. she was diagnosed with being anaemic and apart from that they couldnt see any particular wrong with her so after i asked for bloods to be drawn we got the tests done and took her home. in the next day the tests came back and nothing definite was diagnosed and by that time she had started to sound chesty so a chest x-ray was performed and she spent the day at the vets when they found on the x-ray that she had fluid in her chest in the space between the ribs and chest and she had 100 mls of fluid removed and she was returned to us home that evening with medications to help her settle better. because her heart wasnt able to be seen on the x-ray it was decided that she either had chronic heart failure and or a tumour. we went back to take more repeat blood tests after a few days over the weekend on medication and not much more was found out on examination only that her anaemia had settled down somewhat but her heart was now a lot faster and she was given heart medication to try out. for the last two days on the medication she was eating well and doing heaps better and i went out and got her lots of nice food i knew she would love and all of the fresh meat i processed in my food processor so that it was nice and soft and easy for her to eat but when she awoke this morning she was panting, heart racing and although she ate ok she wasnt looking happy. when i took her down this afternoon they found she had now fluid in her stomach and there was the option of another fluid removal but i decided to let her die in peace and with some dignity left. she passed away this afternoon in my afternoon assisted by the vet and i will place her in our memorial garden very soon now and i have bought some nice flowers to go on top of her spot. it was hard to let her go but there was no guarantee that if we did more fluid reduction and gave her some further medication to try and control the fluid returning that within a few days she would be back here again. the vet said that she didnt think in any case she had more than a week or two at the most to survive if that. so her life is now over and i will miss her heaps. i have so many lovely memories of our times together and of her and of course heaps of photos to look back on and i will never forget how she was with me and how much love she showed me. RIP dear sweet cleo you will be in my heart forever.xxx
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